it seems that my decisions and the time in which i have to make them never meet in a comfortable place. i feel impatient and anxious when i know that i'm faced with an important choice. i feel that there isn't enough time to properly educate myself and explore all of my options; at the same time i feel like i'm taking too long and dwelling on insignificant details and worrying myself unnecessarily.
but making the decision isn't always the hardest part. life isn't as simple or predictable as a mathematical equation - you can't add precise quantities and use neatly proven formulas, quickly and efficiently arriving at an expected outcome. life is organic, fluid, and unpredictable. ingredients spread themselves around in a hodge-podge manner, inviting fate and often creating unforeseen, albeit interesting, surprises.
no matter how prepared you think you are, it inevitably comes down to chance. even though you've investigated, determined, and planned, you can never control. you just wait. and pray. 11:16 PM //
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