5.22.2003
to sub or not to sub?
i think i've made it abundently clear that i am currently lacking a job. i have been unemployed for nearly a week and a half... and i need a job.
i am losing my mind.
i need to be working. i need to be doing something. for some reason, when i'm home alone, i get sucked into some kind of time-wasting vortex. i sit down to check my email, and the next time i look at the clock, an hour has gone by. it takes approximately two hours to accomplish anything. i don't understand. sure, i've gotten some projects done since i've been out of work, but none of it seems to add up to a week's worth of time. where the hell did the rest of it go?
as i was explaining to leah the other day, it seems that i am most effective when i'm busy. the more i have to get done, the better my time-management skills are. my best semesters at school were those during which i was taking the most credits and working the most hours. i'm always wishing for free time, and now that i have it, i have no idea what to do with it.
and on top of that, it seems like every project i think of comes with a price tag. i'd love to find a way to properly store and organize our massive book collection (maybe some new bookcases in the office?), but obviously that will take money. i could use my free time to finally paint the kitchen... but again, i would need to buy the paint and other supplies. i'd like to get our bedroom ready for the delivery of our new bed... but did you know that pillow shams and bedskirts don't just grow on trees? i know - i was shocked, too.
now its not that we can't pay our bills or feed ourselves without my income, but i certainly can't afford to jump into frivilous shopping sprees. so this brings me to the point of this entry:
should i sacrifice my dignity to the power of the almighty buck and work for the next few weeks as a substitute teacher?
if you have any stories or advice, traumatizing or otherwise, please let me know.
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